For the first in forever (hold on, isn't that the lyrics to a rather popular song...?!) I am actually making a effort to complete one of my 2015 New Year's Resolutions....I am going to start a blog.
So here it is.
Why? Because I have been inspired by many YouTubers, Instagrammers and Bloggers that have started this way, and I think I can use the internet as an outlet to help me get my life in order.
You see, I am a little bit of a scatter brain.
Let's start from the beginning.
I am a 23 year-old, engaged, self-employed, geeky, homeowner from the England who loves to read, game and spend time with those that mean the most to me.
It sounds perfect, and it truly is, but I suffer with rather severe depression and very low self-esteem. There I have said it. I don't like to admit it, and I am trying everything to get doctors to not diagnose me, but ultimately, I need to admit to myself that I need some kind of help. Thankfully I have never thought about self-harming, or ever would, so in that respect I am very lucky. But I have dark days that make me want to stay in bed and spend the day on Pinterest dreaming of all the things I wish I could do.
Today was a rather good day, which was lucky as we (me and my better-half who I will call 'Mr B') have 4 friends round for fish and chips and a Wii Mario Kart tournament this evening before 2 of them go back to uni, and to round off the Christmas holidays before we take the decorations down tomorrow (after the 6th January it's back luck to have them up y'know!). Thankfully I was able to get out of bed this morning, but I just as easily could have stayed in bed.
I know how hard it all is on Mr B and I sometimes really cause him problems...and if he ever does read this, I want him to know that I am sorry. Really sorry. And I am doing all I can to try and change that. Including blogging my feelings to anyone that wants to hear about them, and may hopefully respond in a positive way!
This year is hopefully going to be a positive one, as I am about to embark on a new business...watch this space over the next few days so I can tell you more (if anyone is interested)!!
Before I sign off my first blog...here is a little lyric quote that popped up on my iTunes as I was typing...
Mama told me not to waste my life,
She said, "Spread your wings my little butterfly
Don't let what they say keep you up at night
And if they give you shhh
Then they can walk on by!"
Little Mix - Wings
That's a pretty good thing to live by...
Enjoy your day...and let me know if you want to hear more.
Bye for now!
GeeWhiz x
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